It has been a long time since writing in this format.  I have written almost every day via pencil and paper in a journal or calendar.
The path I followed eight years ago has some similarities yet many differences.  I have been finding my own path rather than doing as others follow. I greet the day, give thanks. I feel the breeze and smell the air.  The bird song is a delight, all the various season bird song is a delight.

The past four years a relationship with a good man has developed.  It is still developing.  Emotions in my mind have run high and low. Trust has been the most challenging part.  Trust in vision, remembering to dream of hearts desire. Remembering to ask help from Spirit, my guides, Ancestors, Higher Self, It is my growing belief there is no such thing as normal. My mind, ego mind put me down, felt put down, ran stories and scenarios where I would lose and cry, just as I did s a child going to sleep. I am strong now and make the stories stop, relax, accept what is, know he is not going away, trust.  All along I am told trust, give him a chance, give yourself a chance.

I read past writings and find it odd.

At this time is the issue of my weight and size. I have begun some arm exercises and am doing exercises to slim the fat on my sides and around my bra line.  That is getting smooth. Next to work on my middle roll.

I will save and post this blog which is mostly for me.  I am using the desktop.  I am glad I have not gotten rid of it as I once planned.

So it is.